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CategoriesELEGANT TRAVEL, MANIFESTING INNER PEACE, MANIFESTING LOVE & PLEASURE, THE MAKING OF A SPIRITUAL WOMAN

The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #21 (**Dreams CAN Come True**)

Chère Diary…

Oh my goodness, day by day I am feeling more and more for Guy.

Two nights ago Sandra, Guy and I went to a movie, “The Chacal”.  Then Guy drove me back to my car at his house and we just couldn’t say good-bye!

We ended up going up to his place and spent a beautiful 2 1/2 hours together.

The way he looks at me is just the way I always dreamed a man would look at me.  He truly cares about ME, more than anyone ever has.  It’s a spiritual love and such a deep, deep caring.

The next night Sandra and I went over to Guy’s house for dinner.

What an AMAZING cook he is!  As he cooked we snuck kisses and touches.  At one point he whispered in my ear,

“Yier soir était trop court” (Last night was too short)

I giggled and then felt my eyes roll back in my head remembering it all!

Tomorrow he’s taking me to a man made lake. Ahhhhh…I don’t even have words for how I feel right now.

Chère Diary…

Today was magical.

I arrived at Guy’s house and as soon as we saw each other we hugged and kissed and then ended up making love for 2 ½ hours!

We then decided to go to walk in the forest.

Guy and I both adore spending time in nature, and today he suggested he take me to his favourite forest.  One that is his favourite spot to meditate.

Ahhhh….inner peace and bliss doesn’t even begin to describe what I was experiencing as I walked through the forest and meditated with him.

meditation in france

He has a very strong Buddhist practise that he does and I love balancing my chakras and just being still.

The silence, the birds, the quiet, the peace….this is ME.

There is absolutely nothing more  special in this world than being your true self and really living it.  

Erin, I am so proud of you.  You followed your dream!

You gave yourself permission to come here to France, even amongst all your doubts and insecurities.  I love you!

After we finished meditating we felt hungry, so we went to buy some fresh lettuce for dinner and a little treat at la Patisserie.

Guy and I both felt so enamoured by how perfect the day was so we couldn’t keep our hands off each other!

As soon as we arrived at his house we had another 2 hour session!

Have I mentioned that I actually experience the big “O” with Guy?  Yes!!!! Never in my life did I think I would get to understand what that was.  I never experienced it with anyone, but with Guy, I have!!!

What are you doing to me, Guy?

Who ARE you???

Now we were totally hungry, so Guy cooked the spaghetti I had bought and I made my famous sauce.

Frank Sinatra was playing in the background, and as we moved around the kitchen we hugged, kissed and cooked…just like the dreams I used to have.

He wasn’t acting and I wasn’t acting.  This was real.  This was natural.

And let me tell you, when Guy set the table and lit candles for us to eat by candlelight, I almost broke down crying. Everything I had ever wanted and asked David for was being done for me, without me even asking. Thank you, God!

We had great conversation and then before dessert, Guy came over to me, took my napkin off my lap and pulled me up to dance.

Okay……..can he fulfill any MORE of my dreams???

After dinner we talked, listened to more music and once again made love.

The way he looks into my eyes and touches me is so different than anyone else.  It’s a spiritual, healing experience and the emotions are going wild yet at a calm pace – this is just so amazing.

So, why do I still feel so unsure of Guy?  

Join me tomorrow HERE when I do a complete 180 and make a decision that might make you go, “Erin, NO!” (Trust me, if I were the person reading the post I may do the same, but…)

Have YOU ever felt totally confused about something?  A job?  A business? A partner? A relationship? A move?  I’d love to hear about it and how you moved through it!

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #20 (Self-Love)

Chere Diary,

Today Guy, Sandra and I got together at night, but I didn’t want to act like a couple with Guy.

I stared at other guys and thought, ‘Guy’s not my type.  I’m not attracted to him like I should be.  I have to stop things. I have to tell Guy that I can’t handle all of this.’

When we were alone together though, I began feeling attracted to him!  I wanted to be intimate with him!  He makes me feel so cared for and my soul craves to be loved by someone other than myself.

However, I got up the strength to talk to him about how I was feeling.

Being the type of guy he is, he told me he’d understand if I needed to slow things down or stop things. And, that if I ever needed to talk about David or my feelings that he was here to listen.  

I told Guy that I feel like this year I need to be alone, yet at the same time I feel great when we’re together.

I also mentioned that I feel like we should end things now before any stronger feelings develop and that he doesn’t deserve to be with someone who can change their mind from day to day.

He listened, held my hand, and then leaned in to kiss me.

God his kisses make me melt! What am I going to do???

On a side note, I’ve begun sketching and painting!  So far, all of them have been naked women in nature. I’m loving this theme and how it’s just coming out of me. So interesting!

It actually seems very appropriate because I’m feeling so comfortable, not only with my soul, but in my skin, my figure, my eyes, my mouth and my sexuality.

For the first time in my life I truly feel emotionally, spiritually and physically connected. Self-Love!

If I think back to this time last year, it is exactly the time that I first left David.

Now look at me!

I’m in France, truly discovering Erin, the “woman”! A VERY powerful, sensual experience.

I’m LOVING it!

Every time I am out grocery shopping or stopping at the Post Office I get whistles, comments and compliments.  I think it’s because I am projecting the beauty I feel inside right now.

I am so comfortable in my own skin!…Even with the extra weight and horrendous acne I have right now!

Anyway, I’m seeing Guy tomorrow so we’ll see how things go.

Join me tomorrow HERE for  pure moments of BLISS & CONTENTMENT…and then utter confusion!

If you are seeking self love, ease of living, connection to your soul, as well as how to elegantly manifest your dreams, I invite you to commit to being a Spiritual Woman and learn more about The Art of Living Elegantly

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #16 (**An Elegant Intention Come True**)

Chère Diary,

Clission was as beautiful as you’d image a Medieval town to look and feel like in France during the lead up to Christmas.

It has a gorgeous castle right in the middle of the old town and Christmas markets with trinkets, ornaments, food and mulled wine lining the cobble stoned streets leading to the art gallery.

Christmas music was playing in the streets and there was a gorgeous river flowing through the middle of the town. Oh my God it was beautiful – Sandra and I just couldn’t get over it!

The art exhibit was by Pedro, Guy’s friend. Pedro is an absolutely superb person and terrific artist.

His paintings are stunning and I so enjoyed looking closely at them to try and decipher the techniques he was using.

I felt so inspired to try and paint myself. I WILL paint in France.

We walked around the market and along the beautiful river. Sandra walked with her friend and I walked with Guy. I felt so at ease with him that the words were rolling off my tongue.

How could I feel so at ease with this person? And so quickly?

Clisson

He asked me why I was in France and it felt so amazing to feel comfortable to talk to him about reincarnation – that I felt like I once lived here and that is why I think my soul has been yearning to come live here ever since I was 8 years old.

He totally understood and “got this”. What???

Was I actually able to speak without censoring myself? Laugh without worrying I’m being too loud? Speak in French… with a man??? In France???

Clisson

After a while we got cold, so we went to a little cafe to drink un chocolat chaud and warm up.

We were all having such a great time so Guy invited us over to his place at 9:00pm. After the drive back though I felt very tired and suggested Wednesday instead.

We all agreed.

I cannot wait!

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mercredi, le 21 decembre,1997 (Wednesday)

Chère Diary,

Youpppi! J’aime ma vie!!! (Yippeee! I love my life!)

We all met at Guy’s house tonight and his brother, the monk, and two other friends were there. Guy made homemade, traditional Chai tea and we all sat on the floor in le salon, where he teaches yoga, and just chatted and laughed for hours.

Everyone left except Sandra and I. We stayed until 4:30am!!!

We all shared personal details about our past relationships. God, it was fantastic being able to talk to him about yoga, births, changing the baby’s position by asking it to move, meditation, visualization, compassion, vegetarianism…everything!!!

It was the weekend, so I slept over at Sandra’s house. We slept in until 12:30pm then got ready to go meet up with Guy again.

He had invited us to a Buddhist talk. I really didn’t understand that much but it still felt great to be in the energy of the room when they chanted in Tibetan.

I just sat with my eyes closed and balanced my chakras. It felt incredible. I got “that feeling” again where I am lifting out of my body. Does that happen to everyone? I must ask Guy.

I also received 3 messages:

  1. It is absolutely necessary for me to balance myself and mediate as often as I can, if not everyday.
  2. It IS possible to heal my back, my hips and this damn acne that has surfaced on my face!
  3. I require more healthy eating, more meditation and more compassion for myself and others.

I now put out to the Universe my intention for my life…

My intention is to learn that life doesn’t need to have struggles. I want to be an example for people that you can be healthy, fit and happy, and that there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. It is more beautiful to be that (all that) than to endure hardships all the time. This is my goal.

I want to be an example like Goldie Hawn. People admire and respect her, and are in awe of her happiness. That’s me, and I’ll continue to get better and better as time goes on.

I am not interested in following Buddhism religiously but the philosophies are great and becoming one with the self and gaining compassion for all living things is fantastic and perfect for me.

Bonne nuit!

Join me HERE when a hilarious misunderstanding turns into l’amour of the deepest kind.

P.S. Do you have a wish for your life?  

Do you desire to BE a certain kind of woman  but don’t feel like it right now?  

Do you admire a certain woman (famous or not) and secretly wish that you could BE, DO, or HAVE what she has?  

Tell me about it in the comments below:)

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #15 (A Meeting of 2 Souls)

Chère Diary,

I’ve met a friend!!! Oh, thank the Universe! In my language class is a 25 year old Mexican girl named Sandra. She laughs like me and we have SO MUCH in common!!!

We went out to dinner and talked for hours and hours, sharing intimate details of our lives. It’s like we’ve known each other before.

Finally, someone to share this experience with. I’ve been feeling so lonely.

My typical day is:
– wake up
– take the boys to school
– teach
– come home
– meditate, do some breathing exercises, and then some yoga
– write letters, do some chores
– go pick the boys up, do homework with them
– then play games with them
– eat dinner, do dishes
– read with Maelle and Jean – Do. in le salon
– go to bed

It’s very low key and my French is getting much more fluid, but I don’t feel like ME. I’m bored.

Being with Sandra makes me feel like I’m ALIVE again. She’s been here longer than me so she knows a few more people.

YEAH! I cannot wait to begin living life like Erin again!

In fact, I have “Felt my fear and done it anyway”  and asked to use the car so Sandra and I can drive to La Rochelle, a beautiful city near the ocean, tomorrow!

Chère Diary,

Well, we were all set to go to La Rochelle when Sandra told me a friend invited her to an art exhibit in Clisson, a nearby town, and would I like to come?

She thought I’d be excited to know that another friend is coming along who is a yoga teacher.

To be honest, I was really disappointed. I’ve never been good with plans changing at the last minute. And, why was our plan so easy to toss out?

I felt a bit of anger arise within me, but now that I’ve been reading the Dalai Lama and Deepak Chopra books I am trying to go with the flow more. There must be a reason this is happening, so I changed my attitude and said, “Okay.”

Maybe I could get some good yoga tips for my butt! It seems to be growing by the day with all the cheese and patisseries I’ve been eating!

Chère Diary,

I can’t write much right now because I’m so tired, but today was magnificent!

Sandra and I went for lunch and the yoga teacher was going to come and meet us and take us to where Sandra’s other friend was waiting.

Secretly, I wondered, “Is he going to be handsome?” I craved love and attention.

While we ate dessert, Guy, the yoga teacher walked in.

He wasn’t the dark haired French guy I was envisioning…in fact his hairline was receding, but WOW, he had incredible energy. What WAS that?

Guy sat with us and was so at ease. I liked this. Oooh, I LOVE being around people who have beautiful energy. This was going to be a fun day after all!

Sandra, Guy and I got in the car and on the journey we all chatted so effortlessly about yoga, how he teaches from his home, how he is a Buddhist (WOW! I’m reading a Dalai Lama book right now!!!), how his brother is a Buddhist monk (WOW! Maybe I can learn from him!), how he loves cooking and eating and playing the pan flutes….

I was getting a buzz out of this conversation!!!

I went from being lonely and slightly depressed to feeling ALIVE and excited and so, so curious!

Talking about spirituality, yoga and Buddhism thrilled me! And yes, with so much in common, I began feeling a slight attraction to Guy.

Somehow I feel a connection to his soul and I can’t explain why.

Guy, Sandra and I finally arrived in Clisson and it was magical…in every respect.

Join me HERE when I share with you the magic that occurred in Clisson, as well as some of the pictures I took on this very day!

Love,

Erin Kurt

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #13 (Arriving in PARIS!!!)

Dear Diary,

Well, here I am, on the airplane travelling to Paris. This almost feels like a dream, like I’m not REALLY experiencing this.

Yet, at the same time, I feel SO ultimately ready for this that I’m quite calm inside.

I think my leaving was a huge eye opener for people around me. It made them think about the purpose of life and going for your dreams.

I have such a heightened comfort with myself right now. In fact, I am remembering when I used to travel on planes with David.

I would look around at people travelling alone and feel sorry for them that they had no one to talk to…and yet, I secretly envied them. How were they able to travel all by themself?

And now, look at me!!! I am totally content being by myself! No pressures, just able to do what I want when I want!

I am in LOVE with this feeling of comfort and security.

Only 4 more hours until Paris!!! Wow…
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Dear Diary,

I’m here!!!! I’m in Paris!

Yikes!

All their phones need cards – no change! So I had to figure that out.

Then I had to figure a way to use la toilette while lugging my 2 HUGE suitcases. The toilet paper is dark pink!

I got my period – the timing! Thank God I had something in my purse!

I am starting to feel tired but I have to try and stay awake until I catch the TGV to go to Nantes.

My CD player stopped working which isn’t nice as that would have kept me awake.

Oh well, maybe I’ll get to see a lot of the countryside.

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Dear Diary,

Okay, I should be in Nantes, but I’m not! I’m still in Paris!

I have just survived an incredible ordeal. I REALLY need to sleep now and I just want to cry to let out my frustration!

Everything was going well while I was waiting for my train. I didn’t see it arrive, even after the scheduled time, so I asked someone to watch my baggage (NOT SMART!) and ran up to ask someone what happened.

The ticket lady said the train had already left. Oh My God!!!

Now I had to take buses with my 2 heavy as hell bags and buy a new ticket.

I put the ticket in the passway and while pushing my first huge suitcase through the barrier locked! It wouldn’t let me or my second suitcase pass through!

My back is aching and I’m exhausted beyond belief so I thought, “Screw it!” and decided to take a taxi.

Well…. the cab drivers dusted off my seat and were SO nice to me and I’m thinking, “Paris is so great!”

The cab driver starts asking me if I want to see the Eiffel Tower and La Louvre because it’s so close to where I need to go.

I say sure but then I see the meter running FAST! It’s now up to 172 francs!

So I tell him to just go to the station as I don’t have much money.

He keeps talking and driving, showing me the Paris tunnel where Princess Diana died, La Seine, etc. etc. and now the meter is 240 francs!

I am frieking out inside so I tell him, “I only have 270 francs so please just go to the station.”

He got really angry and scoffed, “I should just drop you off here!”

I say I’m sorry and we don’t talk the rest of the way.

We finally arrived at the station and somehow I got my bags in an elevator, not knowing where I was going. Suddenly the doors opened and a girl stood in front of me and said, “Do you need help?”

I believe she was an angel sent from up above.  There was just such an angelic energy in the air.

I felt like weeping at her feet I was so grateful! She took me exactly where I needed to be and was gone as quickly as she appeared.

Lord, please let me sleep soon, this is enough…

Au revoir.

Join me HERE where I share my first days in France and the very unexpected things that occurred.

Have YOU ever travelled or moved to another country?  What were your first experiences?  Any funny, odd, or angelic experiences such as mine?  I’d love to hear about them in the comments below!

Or, perhaps you’ve always wanted to but are nervous.  Let me know as I can give you some great pointers that will save you from having to experience what I did – LOL!

A bientôt!

Erin Kurt

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