Dear Diary,

What a life I lead. I”m sure it’s the same for everyone, but sometimes you feel like, “Can’t I have fun for a long period of time without some big crisi happening all the time?”

David had been going to counselling and things were great for about 2 weeks. (this is his pattern). Then one day he just reverted back to the old David.

I was so exhausted from teaching, tutoring and teaching piano with the house STILL not being finished that I just had a breakdown.

I told David that I didn’t know if I wanted to be married, that I wanted to go to France, that I wanted to date other guys – I just wanted out of my life!

He thought we both should go to counselling so we went.  After the session we had a masssive argument over…get this…a POTATO!

I told him I was okay to go home and make something quick, a baked potato.

He said, “No, I don’ t want to have to clean up. Let’s get fast food.”

I said, “You can get something but I’ll wait to have my potato at home.”

He kept badgering me saying, “No, Erin, Let’s get fast food.”

Finally, I looked at him and said, “I’m OK with this. I’ll have a potato. You get what you want, OK?”

He accused me of controlling the conversation. 

What????

I said, “David, you are telling me what I can and cannot have.  Just get yourself some fast food and let’s be done with this!”.

Again, he insisted.  Now I went pyscho. I screamed, “David, this is about a POTATO!”

He said, “Why can’t you compromise?”

I said, “I thought I did!”

This was ridiculous!  I am going to tell the counsellor about this at our next session. I can’t take this anymore.

I bet Matt, the Vice Principal, would never treat  his girlfriend this way.

Tomorrow we’re going to our friends house to play games. That should be fun.  I am really just wanting life to feel happy again.

Please God, I don’t know how much longer I can take this.

Click HERE for Part 3 of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman” where so much occurs and so much is decided…or is it?

With Love,