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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #24 (The Power of Beauty)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Wow, 2017 is going to be an exquisite year hear on The Elegant Life Blog!  I cannot wait to share everything I have in store for you!!!

This week finalises the series of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman: A Pilgrimage That Began in Paris” – ready to see how this magical story finishes???  Let’s continue where we left off…me, a dark-haired man and the power of BEAUTY.)

Dear Diary,

The Fair was a display of art from around the world. Emil and I somehow ended up being alone looking at the Bulgaria and Prague displays. After admiring those countries, Emil excitedly searched for anything on Edmonton or Canada. I loved how excited he was to search for it!

One part of the fair was showcasing artistic kitchens! I looked at one kitchen and said, “Oooh, I love that.”

He looked at it and with total sincerity said, “Wow, it’s a beautiful kitchen.” I LOVE how guys are here! They appreciate beauty on a whole different level than North Amercian men do!

We had so much fun tasting foods that were being sampled and looking at all the displays, but I had to go.  Emil asked if we could exchange phone numbers and if we could get together the next day, just me, him, Sandra and her boyfriend.

Oh my god, was he feeling things for me too? I think so!!! There is such a connection between us, an indescribable comfort level.

I wasn’t walking, I was flying!

Yes, THIS is what was missing from Guy. I HAVE to be physically attracted to a guy. All the other things are necesary too, which Guy had, but this is just as important.

I can’t wait to see Emil tomorrow!

Dear Diary,

Today Sandra and I met up with her boyfriend and as soon as he saw me he asid, “Did you talk to Emil today?”

“No, why?” I said.

“He wanted to apologize for how he acted yesterday since he didn’t know you had a boyfriend.”

I replied quickly,”I don’t have a boyfriend.”

(He likes me!!!!)

We went to Sandra’s house and soon after arriving the phone rang. It was Emil. Sandra’s boyfriend grabbed the phone to speak to Emil and I could tell he was sharing with Emil the news that I didn’t have a boyfriend.

All of a sudden, he brought the phone to me…

“There’s someone who wants to talk to you.”

Emil sounded so happy to hear my voice and when I told him we were coming over right away he said with so much enthusiasm, “That’s great!”

When we arrived at Emil’s place his face lit up when he saw me. And then he gave me that warm embrace and kiss on the cheek again.

Seinfeld was on, so we all sat around the TV and laughed for an hour straight.

Ah!!! To listen to my own language again! To interact with a man in my own language.

To be with a sexy, dark-haired man who was kind and genuinely interested in me!!!

Emil and I talked the rest of the night and when I said we have to go he said, “No! It’s still early!”

I did have to go though, so he walked us outside. I said, “Well, hopefully we’ll see eachother again either this week or this weekend.”

He quickly repsonded with, “This week!”

This is so much fun but hey, they leave to go back to Prague in 2 weeks and I leave for Italy in 10 days, so fun is all it’s going to have to be.

Man, I’m already looking forward to seeing him again!

Dear Diary,

I have the worst news to share….Sandra is moving! Her family doesn’t need her anymore, so she is moving to Bretagne. What am I going to do without her???

I tried giving her lots of options on how she can stay here, but in the end she has to do what’s best for her.

Guy called today and wanted to come see me. He brought tulips, soya chocolate dessert, and the Sting CD that I love so much.

I realized right then and there that I cannot abuse my relationship with him. I had to figure this whole situation out. I have to make him understand that it’s over.  He has to really get it this time.

Later that night Emil called and was so happy to hear my voice. He told me he really wants to see me tomorrow.

What does he really want from me?

He’s leaving in 2 weeks! I don’t undestand but I’m just going to enjoy the time we have.

Oh yes, today I made an appointment with the dermatologist. I am committd to getting rid of this acne. Today the cleaning lady took me aside and asked if everything is all right with me.

“Oui. Pourquoi?” I replied.

“You must be allergic to something dear because you have pimples and bumps all over your face.”

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And then, later that night, Francois-Clement came to me on the sofa and said, “Erin, what are all those red dots on your face?”

I am actually shocked that I have all these guys telling me how wonderful I am, even with all these huge zits!

Maybe exuding inner beauty IS enough. Hmmm…

JOIN ME HERE for one of the most romantic scenes of my life – it involves a train station, just like a scene from an old movie – there’s also, a gorgeous, elegant lesson for you in here:)

With love,

Erin Kurt

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #23 (Endings & NEW Beginnings)

I told Guy. I told him everything; that I need to be alone, that I just got out of a 9 year relationship and  that I just need time to be by myself for a while.

He was so upset.

We just sat there, holding hands, in silence. In between the silence he asked me, three times, “Do you want me to wait until after March?

I said “No” three times.

I felt in my heart that this was exactly what I needed to do. Much like the night I told David I wanted a divorce.

I am not ready to be with someone right now and I KNOW that when I go back to Canada I want to experience living by myself.

He stayed for an hour and when he got up to leave he grabbed me for a hug, burst out crying and said, “Je t’aime tres fort, Erin” (I love you so much, Erin.)

It actually shocked me how much emotion he had. I felt like I should be crying too, however I felt the opposite – my soul felt open and free again.

When you have a knowingness inside, you don’t doubt yourself. You KNOW you’re doing the right thing.

Chere Diary,

A few days passed and my sickness has increased.

All in all I just feel like crap; coughing and aching all over.

On a positive note, Guy called and told me that he is doing better and not to worry about him; just to take my time and think about myself.

I realized that this month my divorce is final…perhaps that’s why I’ve been so emotional and perhaps why my body is cleansing itself with this sickness.

I’ve had a few really deep cry sessions in my bedroom.

My divorce is really hitting me and I’m feeling so incredibly emotional.

Chere Diary,

Guess what? I’m going to Italy with the other au pair I’ve been writing back and forth with!!!

This could not come at a better time, honestly.

I need to get away. Be with ERIN again. Explore and experience life without stress. I can’t WAIT!

My pneumonia is almost gone, so I’m feeling better too. By the time we go next month I should be perfect. Yippeee! I feel ALIVE again.

And…a plus side of my sickness is that I’ve lost weight! I’m looking and feeling more like Erin again!

I tried on my jeans and they fit very comfortably!!! Whoo Hooo! Life is turning around!

Oh, guess what? Sandra has a boyfriend!!! He’s into spirituality, yoga and energy work! I’m SO happy for her!

She really wants me to meet him and her friends from the other language school. That would be fun! I’m up for meeting new people!

Chere Diary,

Oh my God, it’s 3:10am but I just HAD to write!!!!

Tonight, Sandra and I went to the mall to write some emails and do some shopping.

We got hungry so we tried to think of where to go.  Earlier in the day I had a thought rush into my head, “You need to go to McDonalds”.

“What???” I thought.

When I asked Sandra what she felt like eating she said, “How about McDonalds?”

Whoah!  

We went, and after I got over the fact that I had just eaten FAT, this guy comes up to us and says, “Hi, I overheard you speaking English and I wondered if I could join you.”

He was doing a work experience from Ireland and was dying to speak English.

We all got along instantly and exchanged phone numbers.  He asked what we were up to tonight and and we invited him along to a night club where we were going to meet Sandra’s boyfriend and friends.

I really didn’t want to have Guy come because I wanted to feel free, but we promised him.

As soon as we entered the club a guy came up to Sandra to hi and I thought,

“WHOAH! Is that her boyfriend????? He’s fricking GORGEOUS!”

Apparently, that was her friend, Emil. Dark, thick-haired, tanned skin, Emil.

Everyone spoke English so we chatted and laughed and I felt like I could really, truly express myself.  It was a BLAST!  Except that Guy was acting like we were still dating.

All night I tried to move away from him so I could talk with other people but he kept following me, almost as if he was saying I was HIS.

This angered me.  “Just let me BE! I am NOBODY”S property!” I wanted to say.

The Irish guy asked me to dance and while dancing Guy came up and started dancing with us – Argh!

I just wanted to be free and alone, but twice, while I was chatting with everyone, Guy leaned in and kissed me on the cheek!  I saw that Emil witnessed this and I wanted to explain profusely that we weren’t a couple!!!!

Anyway, I danced and danced and my soul came alive.  I could sense that the Irish guy, Gary, was interested, but was Emil?  I thought so at times, but he was also chatting with the pretty, SLIM Swedish girl too.

God, he dressed cool and was so funny and handsome.

And, he knew about the Edmonton Oilers!!!! Being from Bulgaria and living in Prague he was totally into ice hockey.  Wow!!! A piece of home!!!

Gary, Emil and I had an absolute blast laughing, talking and dancing.  Sandra said how wonderful it was that I was mingling so well with everyone because then she didn’t feel pressure when she went off with her guy.

Gary couldn’t believe it when he found out I had never met these people before – it was the first time. He said, “Wow, you sure fit in with everyone!”

It was because I was ERIN. In her element.  Happy.  Free. Dancing.

Guy felt tired so he finally left.  I was relieved.  Emil asked me to dance to a slow song and it felt amazing.

Now HE was my type.  In fact he was perfect.

After our dance, Emil invited me to a big art fair in town.  He was into Art???? Hello!

Gary said he’d drop all of us off and when we dropped Emil off Emil came to my side, opened the door and said, “What time do you want to go to the fair? I’ll be there.”

I’m in dream land…..

Dear Diary,

Oh wow, what a fantastic weekend!

I went to pick up Emil and another girl first.  I was excited to see him.  He looked so good and dressed really cool.

He gave me a VERY warm embrace and kiss on the cheek. I felt my eyes roll back in my head and my stomach flip.

We then picked up Sandra and her guy and went to the art fair.

I dropped everyone off at the door and was going to then find a parking spot.  Emil stayed with me – :)))))

We walked into the fair together and it felt incredible.  

How will this all play out? Will Emil be the REAL guy of my dreams?  Watch HERE.

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #19 (Soulmate?)

I spent the rest of the day playing with the kids, eating with the family and trying to figure out how I really felt and what my soul really wanted.

Sandra said she knew all along that Guy liked me.  It was obvious she said.

My big worry was that I didn’t want anything to ruin our friendship and the synergy between all three of us.

Sandra was extremely supportive as she thought Guy and I had a lot in common.  So, I decided to go to Guy’s house that night.

Before I went, I sat down with my diary to try and work through what my soul wanted.

Chère Diary,

Okay, a lot has happened and I really need to sort through things.

Today Guy and I went shopping at an organic store – man he is always so damn thoughtful!  He knew I had been missing my soya products and specialty flours, so he surprised me and took me there.

After, we went for a LONG walk since the weather was so gorgeous.  It felt incredible to be with him. It was easy and I felt so comfortable to just be ME.

There was an ease, a peace.

All I kept thinking was, “THIS is how I always want to feel in a relationship. I want to be fully accepted. To fully be able to talk about spirituality, life, organic healthy food and…”

I’m scared. So scared.  But…I also feel excited.  My insides are flipping!

Could this be the LOVE that my horoscope told me about?

Could Guy Be My Soulmate?

Okay, here is the kind of man I desire:

  1. Honest
  2. Giving
  3. Completely devoted to me and my happiness
  4. Spiritual like me
  5. Dark, Thick hair
  6. Well toned body – likes to keep in shape
  7. Cooks
  8. Loves life
  9. Good sense of humour
  10. Great lover
  11. Someone who I feel is “IT”, no doubts
  12. Loves art and music like me, or even more than me
  13. Plays an instrument or sings
  14. Enjoys nature

How does Guy size up to this list?

Man! He aligns with almost every one except #5 and #11, and I’m not sure about #10 yet;)

Well, I’m going to go and hear what Guy is feeling and thinking.  Should be interesting!

Chère Diary,

Okay, Guy and I drank chai tea and talked about everything we had in common. Guy also admitted that from the very first day we met, he felt I was “IT”, “The One”.

We laughed, talked and shared how we felt and then listened to music. Suddenly, Guy took my hand.  The electricity was HUGE!

We both looked at our hands then looked up at each other’s eyes… and kissed.

The electricity between us was intense….different than between Matt and I.

We were both feeling SO much emotion!

God, I felt womanly!

Suddenly, Guy stopped kissing me and without even saying a word, asked if I wanted to make love.

I was 100% in. This experience was different than anything I’d ever experienced before.

I don’t know why but the emotion I felt, the intimacy between us, was on a different level. It was spiritual.

He was saying all kinds of things in French:

Pince-moi, c’est vrai ca? he said. (Pinch me, is this real?)

Tu me conduis fou! ( You drive me crazy!)

And then… Je t’aime, Erin. (Uh-Oh… you know what THAT means!)

This scared me a bit. But, why did it feel so amazing to hear a man say that to me again?  And to know that he really, REALLY meant it?

I needed to go so Guy walked me to my car.  He told me he felt like he was in a dream, and I have to admit, I did too.

Wow! Did I just experience this? A romance in France? With a beautiful soul?

My God..how my life has changed, opened up, and totally become what I’ve always dreamed about.

Join me HERE where I share the continuation of this story…and it’s not what you’d expect.

Much, much love,

Erin Kurt

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #17 (French Love Affair?)

Chère Diary,

Well, I did it! I survived a Christmas alone, in France! We had a really nice day – lots of eating, laughs and calls from home.

I am feeling so much JOY right now and it’s really helping me speak more fluidly!

I am noticing that whenever I feel joy throughout my body I feel more courageous to speak with people, to ask for the car and to experience life here fully. Interesting.

There was actually a concert of Celine Dion on TV tonight and I loved it!!!

She is a role model to me.

Celine shows that a woman can be wealthy, happy, in love beyonds words and live life with joy…and it’s OK. This is what I want.

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It is the afternoon of le 31 decembre and I am feeling very reflective.

I remember the feeling of utter depression and hopelessness at this time last year. David and I had hosted a New Years Eve party and although we had fun with friends, when the clock struck midnight, my heart dropped.

I only ever had 1 New Years Eve romantic kiss from him…when I was 17 years old. He told me he loved me, but since then, nothing.

Every New Years Eve I would hope, but was always left feeling so alone and disappointed.

Where was the passion between a husband and a wife? Where you thanked God for bringing the two of you together and you BOTH felt love and deep, deep feelings for one another? Was I just stupid for thinking this could ever exist?

Well, I have begun to realize NO.

Being here in France I have learned so much about myself and how I want to love and be loved.

Sandra came from no where and I love her.

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Guy came from no where and I love him. He has shown me, by example, how to be comfortable in one’s own skin and how to have compassion for others, on a whole new level.

I have been spending every last second with Sandra and Guy and each day we laugh so hard that my stomach hurts and I almost pee my pants!

All three of us are looking for the exact same kind of love and won’t settle again for anything less.

We all LOVE music, laughing, art, spirituality and FOOD!

I feel like the luckiest person. Yet, I have some sadness inside because I miss being in love. I have so much love built up inside of me right now and I just want to to hug and kiss Guy to let it out.

But, I’m so scared of losing my independence or becoming so lost in love that I don’t continue to follow my dreams.

I keep telling myself, “Live for TODAY, Erin!” but my insides resist this.

I tend to always live for the future and I KNOW this is wrong.

It negates the happiness right now. I will definitely work on this.

Here’s to a new year and an even better life.

What will happen in 1998? I won’t even try to guess!

Chère Diary,

Oh man, I have GOT to get my weight under control! I have fallen off the wagon again from emotional eating and gained even MORE weight! I tried on my black dress and could barely do it up!

I started laughing instead of crying, which is interesting for me.

“Could it have shrunk accidentally?” I wondered. So I tried on my black pants and could barely do them up too.

No, it’s definitely me and my butt!

Less fat, more activity. I will walk more and get to sleep at a good hour so I have more energy to work out.

It’s my birthday soon and I really want to feel good on the day.
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Chère Diary,

It’s my birthday!!!

Sandra and Guy planned an an incredbile dinner party for me. I am SO LUCKY to have them in my life!

I have two best friends… here…in France…and we only speak French!!! Am I dreaming?????

Is this actually my life???

For my present, they both chipped in and gave me a new bottle of my signature perfume “Beautiful”.

We talked, laughed and drank a lot of champagne, and at one point we got into a tickling fight on the sofa.

Actually, Guy was really focusing on me.

I am sensing that he feels something for me. And, if I’m completely honest, I feel an attraction for him too, but would never, ever want to do something to ruin our friendship. It is far too special to do that.

I think it’s just the fact that we have so much in common and he’s not had friends like us either, so he is loving the feeling of JOY when he’s with us.

The strange thing is that he always seems to know what I need at the time I’m thinking I need it!

How bizarre is this??

For example, yesterday, I thought, “I wonder if Guy will remember that I like flowers and that I really feel like eating a fruit pie.

He brought BOTH to the party!

And two days before that, I was telling Jean-Do and Maelle that I really would like to find a bottle of Maple Syrup so I could make Canadian pancakes for them.

Who shows up later that day with a “little something for me”? Guy!!! With a bottle of maple syrup!!! Does he have me bugged???

We finished my birthday by watching a movie called, “Forget Paris”. We all loved it.

What an incredible and memorable 26th birthday.

Gosh, every weekend we go to different forests and beaches to walk around and explore We always end up doing yoga or meditation in the forest, which is peaceful beyond words. And, just the other day, we had a traditional French picnic with cold quiche and salad, and later played frisbee.

I feel like I am living the real Erin, down to the atomic level.

I know that sounds weird, but it’s the only way I know how to explain what I feel right now. I am 100% me, even on the spiritual level.

Chère Diary,
I woke up today and realized that I had forgotten to take the movie from Guy’s house. It was due back at the video store today, so I called Guy. He told me he’d come pick me up so we could take it back together.

I was a bit nervous to be with him alone. I felt a bit shy without Sandra being there. He and I had never been alone together and…

Whenever we give each other the 4 bisous (4 kisses) on the cheek there is an electricity that goes between us. I don’t know what to make of this.

I love Guy’s spirituality, his views on life, his humour, his kindness, how he cooks, his beautiful eyes, his love of music (especially when he plays that one song on the pan flutes!), but there is something not quite ALL there.

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After we dropped off the movie, Guy surprised me by taking me to a health food store! He knew how much I had been craving certain health foods.

As we walked around the store I could feel the energetic tension between us.

Whenever we talk and look into each other’s eyes there’s the weirdest thing that happens! I literally FEEL a buzz of hot energy between us!

Anway, Guy drove me back home and helped me carry my bags into the garage.

I put down my bags,  turned around to say a huge thank you for taking me to the organic store, reached out my arms to do the “Canadian thing” and give him a big hug and…

BOOM! He pulled me towards him, laid the most passionate kiss on me and said,

“Erin, je savais que c’etait toi.”

Join me HERE when I translate this and share what transpired after my unintentional expression of love!!!!

Have YOU ever experienced this kind of electricity with someone?  What did you share in common?  What were the qualities that attracted you to him/her? I’d LOVE to hear all about it in the comments!

With so much love,

Erin Kurt

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #16 (**An Elegant Intention Come True**)

Chère Diary,

Clission was as beautiful as you’d image a Medieval town to look and feel like in France during the lead up to Christmas.

It has a gorgeous castle right in the middle of the old town and Christmas markets with trinkets, ornaments, food and mulled wine lining the cobble stoned streets leading to the art gallery.

Christmas music was playing in the streets and there was a gorgeous river flowing through the middle of the town. Oh my God it was beautiful – Sandra and I just couldn’t get over it!

The art exhibit was by Pedro, Guy’s friend. Pedro is an absolutely superb person and terrific artist.

His paintings are stunning and I so enjoyed looking closely at them to try and decipher the techniques he was using.

I felt so inspired to try and paint myself. I WILL paint in France.

We walked around the market and along the beautiful river. Sandra walked with her friend and I walked with Guy. I felt so at ease with him that the words were rolling off my tongue.

How could I feel so at ease with this person? And so quickly?

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He asked me why I was in France and it felt so amazing to feel comfortable to talk to him about reincarnation – that I felt like I once lived here and that is why I think my soul has been yearning to come live here ever since I was 8 years old.

He totally understood and “got this”. What???

Was I actually able to speak without censoring myself? Laugh without worrying I’m being too loud? Speak in French… with a man??? In France???

Clisson

After a while we got cold, so we went to a little cafe to drink un chocolat chaud and warm up.

We were all having such a great time so Guy invited us over to his place at 9:00pm. After the drive back though I felt very tired and suggested Wednesday instead.

We all agreed.

I cannot wait!

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mercredi, le 21 decembre,1997 (Wednesday)

Chère Diary,

Youpppi! J’aime ma vie!!! (Yippeee! I love my life!)

We all met at Guy’s house tonight and his brother, the monk, and two other friends were there. Guy made homemade, traditional Chai tea and we all sat on the floor in le salon, where he teaches yoga, and just chatted and laughed for hours.

Everyone left except Sandra and I. We stayed until 4:30am!!!

We all shared personal details about our past relationships. God, it was fantastic being able to talk to him about yoga, births, changing the baby’s position by asking it to move, meditation, visualization, compassion, vegetarianism…everything!!!

It was the weekend, so I slept over at Sandra’s house. We slept in until 12:30pm then got ready to go meet up with Guy again.

He had invited us to a Buddhist talk. I really didn’t understand that much but it still felt great to be in the energy of the room when they chanted in Tibetan.

I just sat with my eyes closed and balanced my chakras. It felt incredible. I got “that feeling” again where I am lifting out of my body. Does that happen to everyone? I must ask Guy.

I also received 3 messages:

  1. It is absolutely necessary for me to balance myself and mediate as often as I can, if not everyday.
  2. It IS possible to heal my back, my hips and this damn acne that has surfaced on my face!
  3. I require more healthy eating, more meditation and more compassion for myself and others.

I now put out to the Universe my intention for my life…

My intention is to learn that life doesn’t need to have struggles. I want to be an example for people that you can be healthy, fit and happy, and that there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. It is more beautiful to be that (all that) than to endure hardships all the time. This is my goal.

I want to be an example like Goldie Hawn. People admire and respect her, and are in awe of her happiness. That’s me, and I’ll continue to get better and better as time goes on.

I am not interested in following Buddhism religiously but the philosophies are great and becoming one with the self and gaining compassion for all living things is fantastic and perfect for me.

Bonne nuit!

Join me HERE when a hilarious misunderstanding turns into l’amour of the deepest kind.

P.S. Do you have a wish for your life?  

Do you desire to BE a certain kind of woman  but don’t feel like it right now?  

Do you admire a certain woman (famous or not) and secretly wish that you could BE, DO, or HAVE what she has?  

Tell me about it in the comments below:)

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