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How to Elegantly Manifest Your Greatest SOUL Desires (Without needing to know “How”)

Prosperity, Abundance, Desires Coming true…where are you currently with all of this?

Are you waiting for your desires to appear? Do you feel frustrated? Are you feeling a bit depressed? How about overwhelmed at trying to figure out the “HOW”?

I can relate to all of these. At different stages of my life I would feel hopeful and excited and then depressed and even angry that “The Universe” wasn’t delivering me what I was asking for. Plus, I consistently focused my energy on trying to figure out HOW to make my desires come true. WRONG thing to do!

My intention with this week’s post is to let you know, trust and BELIEVE that the Universe has magical abilities to make your dreams and desires come true…you simply need to know how the Universe works and put those principles into practice…without focusing on the “How” of making your dreams become a reality.  Ready?

You could have a desire about attracting more prosperity into your life, attaining (and maintaining) your ideal body, attracting a perfect partner into your life or getting a dream job somewhere and I’d give you the EXACT same advice, based on my experience of manifesting every single one of these ….and more!

Let me start off by saying this…

The only reason I share my story with you is so you know that if a teacher from Canada can manifest all of her desires, so can you.  My story is meant to inspire and offer guidance on how I learned to manifest my soul’s desires, after suffering in desperation and deprivation most of my life.

How the Magic of the Universe Can Bring Your Desires to You

We just recently moved into a dream apartment in the neighbourhood of our dreams.  Here is how it all played out and how easy and elegant the magic of the Universe can work in your favour.

When I was a school teacher in Canada there was one particular Spring Break that really stood out in my mind. The Spring Break when all my students seemed to be going to far away places to explore the world…and I couldn’t.

Money wasn’t available for me to do this and I felt a bit depressed about it.

When all the students arrived back from their travels they shared with me all of their adventures and although I was excited to hear about them, it made it even more “in my face” that I still was not at a point in my life where I could afford a luxury trip like they had all just experienced.

One boy came up to my desk and showed me pictures of his travels to Dubai as well as the Atlantis Hotel he stayed at.

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WOW! It looked stunning. My heart flipped just looking at the photos. He swam with the dolphins (one of my life long dreams) and had loads of fun with his father in the waterpark and aquarium.

I sat there just stunned that some people were able to experience life this way.  I SO wanted this for myself, but the next thought was,

“Pff…how in the world would I ever be able to experience that?  Some experiences are just for the wealthy I guess.”

Years passed and I did everything imaginable to try and bring prosperity into my life.  Little by little more prosperity came, but not as much as my soul knew it desired. It wanted to experience life FULLY, and more prosperity was needed to do that.

Fast forward 9 years and we managed to elegantly manifest a move to Dubai (Click HERE to read that beautiful story!)

We settled into a villa but soon realised that The Marina area was the area that would suit us better. We adore having everything at our doorstep and being able to go out to dinner or breakfast and walk home leisurely.

So, we did what we know to do, what I teach all of my clients and what is taught in The Art of Living Elegantly

First

We began going to The Marina each week and looked at different apartment buildings.

We found the perfect one! Amazing floor to ceiling views, quality finishings, huge balcony…done!

The only issue was that we could only move at the end of April and it was October!

Second

We created a life vision for Dubai.  In very specific detail we discussed and wrote down exactly how we wanted our life to look and feel.

Third

We continued living “Elegantly” and did the Elegant Clearing Process™ daily on our perfect apartment and life vision.

Fourth

We awaited any inspiration to take. Time clicked on and we kept visiting the Marina and viewing properties. None matched our first choice. And NONE in our favourite building were coming available.

It would have been VERY easy to go down the panic route. The “what are we going to do?” route, but…The Art of Living Elegantly does not include this in it’s steps;)

The Magic in Action!

One day, my son’s school asked me if I’d be open to taking over a class for a bit as they knew I was a former teacher. I really didn’t want to, as I was busy enough with the growing and expanding Elegant Life Blog, but I listened and followed the guidance and said yes.

One day, near the end of my short stint, I was collecting some forms and noticed that one of the addresses of the students was the building we were going to look at later that day (and was directly next to our favourite building).

I was going to say something to her and then my ego came in and said, “Why? Just move on” But then Divine Inspiration came in and practically said the words for me…

“How funny! We’re coming to look at an apartment in your building after school today!”

What happened next is the utter MAGIC of the Divine.

This little girl said to me, “My mummy has something even better for you.”

[Slightly shocked]”Oh, really?”

“You can talk to her after school.”

“Okay!”

Well, I don’t think I even need to tell you the end of this story, do I?

Yep. She had a place in our favourite building that wasn’t even listed. It. Was. Perfect.

As I write this post I am sitting on my sofa, in Dubai, in a fricking amazing apartment, staring straight at….The Atlantis Hotel. (Come see it at minute 8:00 in the video above!)

Yes, I am still in shock I think. I can go to The Atlantis every day if I want and swim with those dolphins and experience the joy of playing in the waterparks with my kids.

I don’t even have words…

What are your dreams?

Do they seem too big?

Too impossible?

Please, please hear me when I tell you this….

If you do what I teach you, you can have, be and experience ANYTHING your soul desires.

I learned how this Universe works and it never fails me. After so many years of struggle and angst, it almost amazes me that I, Erin, am mentoring women on how to make their desires elegantly come true!

Look, I’ll get really honest here for a moment.

If what you are currently doing (or not doing) isn’t working for you…

If you don’t have the body, the health, the partner, the job, the prosperity, the clients…whatever! Then you need to do things differently.

Mentoring with me or going through The Art of Living Elegantly Program are two options, but all I ask you to do is get really specific about your life vision and then ask for Divine Inspiration as to what the next step is. Listen, Wait, or Take action on what it says, but don’t stay doing the same old things that may feel “comfortable”.

I’m telling you, life is BEAUTIFUL! It can offer you so, so much. More than you could even dream up for yourself.

And I’m not talking about life like some people do. I will never ever say, “Dream BIGGER!”, “GO HIGHER!”, or “DON”T PLAY SMALL!” because that is just ego stuff that is led by your subconscious thoughts.

It’s a sneaky way of making you think you need to do or have more to BE more, and that is NOT what The Elegant Life is about.

The Elegant Life is a beautiful way of connecting with your Divinity and allowing this connection to elegantly help you manifest and live this life to the fullest expression of your soul and it’s desires.

If you have questions about dreams, desires, or manifesting please write them in the comments below. It’s always so great to hear from you so I know what type of posts to focus on in service of you.

Here’s to your dreams and desires!!!

With so much love,

 

 


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The Top 5 Life Lessons I Learned in France – The Elegant Life

Life Lessons (From France)

So, now you know why my year in France is a year that I will never forget and will always hold so dear to my heart.

In 1997 I left Canada a broken, insecure, unfulfilled person and in 1998 I returned a peaceful, confident, and spiritual woman.

It is my greatest honour to pass along some of the wisdom I gained. The life lessons I learned that year have served me every day since then.

I’ve had ups and I’ve had downs, but whenever I come back to these lessons, I feel peaceful, aligned, and confident in who I am and why I’m here.

Are you ready to learn them?

Okay!

Here are 5 of the Top Life Lessons I learned in France:

(Psst…for full explanations of the lessons, watch the video above)

  1. How to live a life filled with Peace, Pleasure, Prosperity, JOY and Beauty.
  2. How to connect with one’s own Divine Nature and how to allow that essence to be so fully YOU that you GLOW and touch other people’s lives with that glow. Shortly after returning from France I was walking in a Health Food Store and a woman stopped abruptly in front of me and said loudly, “WHOAH! YOU ARE GLOWING! You are actually GLOWING!” I just smile when I hear this now because I know it’s not me they’re seeing and feeling, it’s the Divine/Source Energy. This was a wish I had while living in France. I wanted to GLOW like the Buddhist Masters did. And, voila! With time and doing my special daily practise (the one you can find in The 6 Phase Visioning Meditation) I was able to fulfil my wish! And it just keeps getting stronger and stronger as I practise.
  3. How to LIVE your spirituality, not just talk or read about it.
  4. How to know and LOVE yourself intimately, so you never compare yourself with others again.
  5. How to know what your soul desires and how to elegantly manifest it.

Again, these are just SOME of the gorgeous life lessons that France gifted me. The beautiful thing is that much of what I learned has deepened even more since then.

For one, my connection and alignment with Source is something that has deepened to such a level that I consistently receive Divine Downloads for myself and the people I mentor.

I giggle every time I receive an email or comment during a session like this,

“Oh my God, are you psychic? It’s like you know me perfectly and we’ve only just met! 

or

“Oh my God, are you psychic?  I asked to hear these exact words as a sign today!”

This post is the very last post of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman: A Pilgrimage That Began in Paris” series, but it’s just the beginning of what the Divine has guided me to share with you.

Please know that if you have found your way here, it’s not an accident.  It shows you are ready to receive all of the Elegant Processes and wisdom that I have been guided to share.

If you weren’t ready to receive it you wouldn’t have been guided here.  So congratulations for being ready!!!

It is my wish and intention, that today is the beginning of your OWN personal pilgrimage. One that takes you on a beautiful journey back HOME, to your Divine Nature – the place where Inner Peace, JOY, Abundance and Beauty resides.

Living from this space allows you to live in Elegant Flow where everything you desire (or something even better) flows elegantly to you, without hard work or huge effort.

So, let’s get this journey started, shall we?

Each week I will be sharing wisdom with you on how to be a Spiritual Woman who lives The Elegant Life, so make sure you put a note in your calendar to come back here every Wednesday.

Also, I LOVE connecting with you by reading and responding to your comments and questions, so please do write to me in the comments, okay?

Since I will only be posting once a week now, I invite you to follow me on YouTube, Facebook, and Instagram for even more inspiration and wisdom.

See you next week!

Love,

Erin

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #27 (The FINALE)

Well, this beautiful story could continue… in fact it could continue on for years since the connection between Guy, Emil and my current husband, Ilker, is very interconnected. This has been a full circle love story that I will hold close to my heart forever. It’s the story of how I became the Spiritual Woman I am today and how I truly live “The Elegant Life”.

Here is the short version of how things ended with all of the key players in this beautiful story…

I did see Emil one last time – in Prague. That story can be for another time because it wasn’t the kind of meeting I expected, in fact I felt heart broken at one point and then strong and resilient near the end.

The interesting part is that after I returned to Canada, an amazing thing happened to reconnect us and I spent months trying to find a way to get him over to Canada. However, in the midst of this, I met my husband. When I finally told Emil about my “boyfriend” we eventually stopped communicating. The last time I heard from Emil was on my wedding day.

I hadn’t heard from Emil for years but on the morning of my wedding day, which was in Turkey, just next door to Bulgaria where he lived, I opened my email to find, you guessed it, an email from Emil saying he missed me. Yeah, I know….

Talk about a year!

1997, a year that began with drama and things I never thought would happen to me in my life…to experiencing things that were amazing, AMAZING!

In one year I went from stressed, insecure and scattered to spiritually aligned, peaceful and confident in who I was as a woman.


During the remaining months in France my relationship with Guy as well as my spiritual evolution flourished.

I left France with a daily practise that I did every morning without fail…and still do to this day.

When my sister came to visit me in France, just before I left, she was in awe at the reaction I was receiving from people on the street.

“Did you SEE that?” she’d say. “Look how people are reacting to you!”

I was oblivious to it – I just thought their stares and double takes were perhaps because they thought I was someone famous.

But no, there was something different about me.

I felt inner peace.

I felt connected to my “Divine Nature”

I felt beautiful.

I intimately knew and LOVED who Erin was. I loved what her style was and I knew what she required and what she desired…. I just loved her.

WATCH the video above, at minute 5:44-6:30, for a little giggle:)


Guy is, to this day, the greatest gift of my life. He GAVE me the life I have now, as it’s because of everything he showed me, did for me and taught me that I am the woman I am and that I have the life I have now.

This is why he and I were meant to come together that year.  I served the evolution of his soul and he served the evolution of mine. No, it wasn’t meant to be  a long term relationship, but it was truly a year we will both always remember and be thankful for.

I’ve not seen him since 1998, but we spoke regularly for years.

A period went by when our communication totally stopped.

He got married, I got married. We both had children, etc. but a couple of years ago Sandra, he and I almost reunited in Paris. (Sandra and I did and that story is one I MUST tell you since it miraculously occurred after I used my Elegant Clearing Process™).

Sadly, Guy is divorced now, but he is still teaching yoga and is highly respected in what he does.


If you go back to post #1 of this series, “The Making of a Spiritual Woman: A Pilgrimage That Began in Paris”, you will see that it began with Guy and I sitting on a park bench and me staring up into the sky saying with such sadness and hopelessness, “I just want to be happy, Guy. I just want to be happy.”

Well, here’s where I will end this series…

Picture it being July 26, 2003 and I’m on a boat, with 150 plus guests sailing down the Bosphorus in Istanbul, Turkey.

I’m wearing a simple, elegant wedding dress that is so ME, and I’m with my father. We are dancing to the Father/Daughter song and all I keep repeating is, “Dad, I’m so happy right now. I’m SO happy.”

I felt peace in my heart and full JOY and contentment with my life, who I was marrying and who I was as a woman.

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I want to say a massive thank you to my husband; my dark-haired, spiritual, generous, guitar playing, great cook, music loving, great lover of a husband for loving me unconditionally and gifting me two incredibly beautiful souls…our children.

HERE is a post I wrote culminating all the BIG LIFE lessons I learned in France and what that means for YOU.  

I always felt I needed to share this story, but I never wanted to share it just for ME. There was a purpose and the Divine told me I needed to share it.

The beautiful responses I’ve been receiving privately just solidifies WHY I needed to share it.

The post HERE shares how we’ll be moving forward at The Elegant Life.

I really cannot wait! It’s been 20 years since I began my pilgrimage back HOME to the truth of who I am, both as a soul and as a woman, and I finally feel ready to BE the woman I was meant to BE; to share these exquisite Elegant Processes & Principles it took me years to learn and embody.

Now it’s your turn to begin your OWN beautiful pilgrimage, but the good news is that your pilgrimage will be supported by exquisite Elegant Processes!

It’s going to be a beautiful journey:)

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #26 (My BIG Spiritual Lesson)

Dear Diary,

My trip to Italy was incredible! Spaghetti and Tiramisu really DOES taste different there!

I will never forget the evening my friend and I dined under the stars eating spaghetti bolognese and tiramisu while being served by a funny, passionate Italian!

I will cherish this trip for a very long time. What a stunning country full of vivacious life, history, beauty and dark-haired men! LOL!

I just HAD to call Guy and talk though.

I felt ill inside the few days before coming home. I knew he would be open to talking as I had spoken to Sandra and she told me that he was better.

He had finally realised why I had been telling him over and over for two weeks before I left that it was over and I didn’t want to hurt him anymore.

It felt so good to talk with him in a civil way again; with calmness and peace – how we used to.

He told me that I’ve always asked him to understand me, so now he is asking me to try and understand him. He was just in shock at seeing me kiss Emil, so he lost it.

I totally understand that.

He also said, “I don’t think you realise I much I love you.”

We both agreed that we needed each other in our lives and that after we drive Sandra to her new home in Bretagne we would carry on as friends.

Peace at last.

Now…what in the world do I do about this romance with Emil???

Sandra gave me a note that Emil had written for me while I was in Italy. Oh my God. He really, really felt the way he said he did!

He wrote so beautifully and with such heart. I have to admit, I’m in shock!

God, why am I always so in shock when great men like me?

Emil wrote that he loved me, that he wished he could spend every minute with me and that one day at work, the theme song from The Titanic, “My Heart Will Go On” played on the radio and he cried like a baby.

What???? My tender, emotional, gorgeous man felt the same emotions I had been feeling as I stared for hours at the photos of us in the flower fields by my house?

I’ve never felt THIS way before. It’s different than with Guy. This love feels more like the kind you see in a romance novel or movie. With Guy it was…hmmm… also a romance novel or movie, just a different script.

But with Emil, because he was my type, this added factor of attractiveness completely made me swoon and fall deeply, quickly.

I’m going to go to sleep and dream about him.


Dear Diary,

Today Guy and I drove Sandra to her new family in Bretagne. I’m so happy for her as the family seems so down to earth and the home they live in is gorgeous! It’s near to the Sea, so I can picture Sandra spending a lot of time at the beach.

I will miss her so much though.

On the drive home, Guy and I had a lot of time to talk. I opened up and really tried to explain how I believe we weren’t destined to be together forever, but that we were destined to meet each other and share this experience.

He said all the same beautiful things as usual but then the conversation shifted and we began talking about life like friends. Ahhh….this felt right.

At one point he turned to me and said something that hit me right in the heart and was perfect for me to hear in that moment.

He said, “Erin, I have to tell you that the man who you decide to spend the rest of your life with will be the luckiest man on this earth, because you are truly a beautiful person.”

For the first time in my life, I actually felt and believed that yes, I AM a beautiful person and I deserve to be truly loved and appreciated for who I am.

This is a very spiritual time for me right now and I am learning so many beautiful, spiritual lessons.

When I read from Deepak’s book, “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success” I just sob from the absolute truth about how this whole thing called life works…


Dear Diary,
Today I felt like leaving the family – I cannot take the mother anymore!! She is SO off and on with her emotions and the LAST thing I need in my life right now is stress!

I spoke to Guy about all this and he said that he is here for me with whatever decision I make but to make sure that I leave without regrets.

He also added…

“Now is the time to bring your meditation into your life.”

Oooooh, that hit home. This was a powerful spiritual lesson for me.

Being with Guy this year has gifted me more than just love and compassion. He has helped bring me back HOME. Home to my Divinity. Home to where my peace & happiness reside and where I don’t feel the need to always run or react in anger.

I know how to align myself and actually EMBODY the essence of an enlightened being now. Guy was right, now was the time to really bring my meditation into my life.

Join me HERE for the finale of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman” series. Find out what happened with Sandra, Emil and Guy, and how they actually led me to my husband. I came full circle, from sitting on a bench in France telling Guy, “I just want to be happy”, to being on a boat, on the Bosphorus in Istanbul saying….

With so much love,

Erin Kurt

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #25 (Train Station Goodbye)

Dear Diary,
Yikes! My brain is cluttered. I just want to take a hot bath with essential oils and have some soft music playing and candles burning…

I’m not able to do this right now, so instead I am choosing to listen to music, sing out loud and DANCE! This always makes me feel better:)

Things are just getting so complicated.

Guy is a wreck and actually making me scared.

Everywhere I am, he turns up! I’m driving, he’s beside me on the road. I’m at the train station, he’s there and wants to talk.

I’m at the movies and I feel his presence and boom! It turns out he was there!

And today, Emil, Sandra, her boyfriend and I were doing errands for my Italy trip and whose there? GUY!

I was paying at the cashier and looked up and there he was.

He said, “I promise I didn’t plan this.”

I’m feeling scared! Who IS this person?

Sandra and I were back at her place and Guy called. He was sobbing and saying he needed to talk. God! It’s April and at this exact time last year I felt exactly the same…

Stressed, overwhelmed, frustrated, pressured. I started to cry, as I just couldn’t hold in all my emotions any more.

I agreed to let Guy come over for 5-10 minutes and what did he show up with? Flowers.

He told me to look at him and tell him it was over and would never be again.

“Regards moi, Erin. Regards moi et dis moi que c’est fini entre nous”. (“Look at me, Erin. Look at me and tell me it’s finished between us”)

I looked straight into his eyes and told him, “Guy, c’est fini.”

Somehow this helped him, so we just sat and talked in a very adult way about how things would be between us from now on.

After he left I felt a HUGE sense of relief. This was not the life I wanted. I needed to be FREE and continue learning who Erin was.

What do I like?

What do I want out of life?

I want to deepen my connection to God/Spirit/ what ever it is.

I WANT that. THAT is what my soul is desiring.

After a while, Emil and Sandra’s boyfriend came over. It felt SO good to have him there – a calm, happy presence.

We had an amazing time laughing and talking and connecting. Emil held my hand and guided me to sit on his lap so he could cuddle me.

We had such easy conversation and all I could think was, “Erin, is this your life?”

“You are with a gorgeous, dark-haired guy who treats you so kindly, so tenderly and is SO into learning about you, your life and your interests. I cannot believe this is your life!”


Dear Diary,
Today I went to Emil’s apartment and we ate lunch, sang songs together, watched a music concert on TV then decided to go for a walk near my house.

He was so excited to experience my world! He looked at all my photos from Canada with such delight and then asked for me to show him my favourite walk by my house.

Oh my goodness…

We walked through fields of flowers and chateaux taking photos, hugging and laughing…a lot!

I felt so loved and cared for. See? Guy isn’t the only man in the world who will treat me right!

Why did I think that? I would have settled if I had stayed with him!

But… I leave for Italy in 2 days – what can ever come of this?


Dear Diary,
Today I head to Italy!!! Guy was kind enough to take me to the dermatologists office to get the prescription for my acne. The doctor says I should notice a difference in a week – oh, I hope so!

Now, the plan was to meet at Emil’s house so I could say good-bye and he could take me to the train station.

I didn’t know what to do because Guy offered to drive me to the train station but I kept saying,

“No, it’s okay. I need to say good-bye to everyone from Prague anyway.”

So, he offered to drop me off there.

I hated this, but didn’t quite know what to say!

Emil and Sandra’s boyfriend were waiting outside for me – uh oh…

As soon as Emil saw me I could tell he was emotional.

Guy drove off and Emil came up to me, put his arm around my shoulders and walked me into the apartment.

Shit, I hope Guy was far enough away that he didn’t see that!

Emil and I spent our last couple of hours talking and kissing in his bedroom. We kept telling each other over and over how much we would miss each other and how sad we were that we met so late.

When I would return from Italy he would be back in Prague. This was a totally intense romance between us.

He asked to keep a picture of me and I could feel how intensely he felt for me when I gave it to him.

Oh God, what is this all about?

We walked to the Boulangerie to buy something for me to eat on the train and couldn’t stop touching eachother. He had to have his hand on my back and I had to be touching his hand – it was like we didn’t want to be disconnected from each other.

He even turned to me and said, “Erin, can you believe that today is one week exactly that we got together?”

What guy remembers those things…and in the middle of a grocery store??

I LOVE this!

We continued on to the train station and I felt a pit in my stomach.

One, because I was going to have to leave Emil and this amazing, new relationship and two, because I felt Guy’s energy somewhere.

I just felt that he was there, but I wasn’t going to ruin this beautiful moment.

Emil and I went to sit on a bench on the train station platform. We faced one another and stared into each other’s eyes while holding hands.

I felt like I was in a movie, a romantic, magical movie, when all of a sudden….

I turned to see Guy charging up the stairs of the train station.

I winced and said, “Guy, pourquoi tu fais ca?” (“Guy, why are you doing this?”)

He spit out, “I looked back in the mirror of my car! I knew this started when we were still together!”

I said, “Non, ce n’est pas vrai!” (“No, it’s not true”)

He stomped away, then turned back around and said to me,

“When you come back, you give me back my knapsack and then that’s it – I don’t want to see you!”

Then he turned to Emil and said, “This doesn’t bother you, hey? You probably like it!”

Emil and I were in shock. He kept saying the F word over and over and over again and told me how sorry he was that I was going to have to come back and deal with all of this by myself.

Wow, I felt so protected by his caring words.

We only had two minutes before my train arrived, so I put Guy out of my mind and just focused on Emil.

Soon the train arrived. We stood up and walked slowly to the carriage.

The door opened, we shared a tender kiss and then as I boarded the train, I felt his hand on my back. Oh, his touch…

The train started pulling away and just like in old movies, he walked alongside the train with his gaze fixated on mine.

As I stared out the window at him, the last thing I remember seeing is him kissing his fingers and raising them up into a peace sign.

I felt like crying because today, I’m leaving a true romance, I’ve hurt and angered someone who has respected and loved me unconditionally, and to top it all off, today, my divorce is legally over. Talk about endings….

So, here I sit, on a train in France, heading to Italy, and even with everything that just transpired a moment ago, I still am having the time of my life.

Join me HERE for the very last post in this series, where I share one of the biggest lessons I learned while in France.

See you tomorrow!

With love,

Erin Kurt