Dear Diary,
What a life I lead. I”m sure it’s the same for everyone, but sometimes you feel like, “Can’t I have fun for a long period of time without some big crisi happening all the time?”
David had been going to counselling and things were great for about 2 weeks. (this is his pattern). Then one day he just reverted back to the old David.
I was so exhausted from teaching, tutoring and teaching piano with the house STILL not being finished that I just had a breakdown.
I told David that I didn’t know if I wanted to be married, that I wanted to go to France, that I wanted to date other guys – I just wanted out of my life!
He thought we both should go to counselling so we went. After the session we had a masssive argument over…get this…a POTATO!
I told him I was okay to go home and make something quick, a baked potato.
He said, “No, I don’ t want to have to clean up. Let’s get fast food.”
I said, “You can get something but I’ll wait to have my potato at home.”
He kept badgering me saying, “No, Erin, Let’s get fast food.”
Finally, I looked at him and said, “I’m OK with this. I’ll have a potato. You get what you want, OK?”
He accused me of controlling the conversation.
What????
I said, “David, you are telling me what I can and cannot have. Just get yourself some fast food and let’s be done with this!”.
Again, he insisted. Now I went pyscho. I screamed, “David, this is about a POTATO!”
He said, “Why can’t you compromise?”
I said, “I thought I did!”
This was ridiculous! I am going to tell the counsellor about this at our next session. I can’t take this anymore.
I bet Matt, the Vice Principal, would never treat his girlfriend this way.
Tomorrow we’re going to our friends house to play games. That should be fun. I am really just wanting life to feel happy again.
Please God, I don’t know how much longer I can take this.
Click HERE for Part 3 of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman” where so much occurs and so much is decided…or is it?
With Love,
