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Overcoming Challenges: How to Do it The Elegant Way

Ladies!!!! I cannot tell you how excited I am to be back blogging, vlogging and supporting you.

I had an absolutely wonderful 2 month holiday, but there were some challenges that appeared, and I want to share them with you so that you can see how a Spiritual, Elegant woman chooses to move through them.

My kiddies and I first flew to London. I had the opportunity to stay with one of my best friends and visit with my other two besties as well.

How wonderful it was to be openly welcomed, hugged, and cared for. Having close girlfriends was once only a dream. After spiritually evolving so quickly, people I  called friends suddenly dropped out of my life. So to meet up with these three beautiful women again meant the absolute world to me.

To read how I manifested these 3 beautiful friends read, “How to Elegantly Attract Quality Friends”

Overcoming Challenges at the Airport

My kiddies and I swiftly left to travel from London to Calgary. However, due to an unknown Canadian government rule for dual citizens and some extremely unhelpful Air Canada employees, except for one angel, we missed our flight.

The saga that took place is a story I’ve told so many times over the summer, so I won’t go into it all, however we ended up flying to Toronto, only to be held up in security, and then another set of security only to have to run like cheetahs to the terminal which was literally just closing.

We finally landed in Calgary and soon after, my daughter got the flu and a chest infection.

When my hubby arrived he and I went for a special Reconnective Healing session. My intention was “for anything and everything that was still within me, blocking my Divine light, to transmute and be cleared.”

I had been given the clear message before I left for holidays that The Elegant Life would expand even more this year and I needed to ready for it, so when this Reconnective Healing Session entered the picture I said, “Yes”.

While receiving the healing, I heard messages in my awareness like this:

It’s over, Erin. Done. It’s finished now.

“Hmmm, don’t know what that means but… okay”, I thought.

Overcoming Challenges of Health

Later that week I began coughing and feeling unwell. I ended up having to go on antibiotics but still didn’t get better. I was coughing so much that I was bringing up some pretty nasty looking stuff (releasing, clearing, yep!)

I still enjoyed some special moments while my hubby was in Canada with us, but on the final day, when just my kiddies and I were to board a flight from Calgary to London, London to Istanbul then Istanbul to Bodrum…I broke. I asked my sister to please take me to the doctor.

Well… turns out I had pneumonia.

Now, those of you ladies who have read or watched the Series I did on, “The Making of a Spiritual Woman: A Pilgrimage that Began in Paris” know that I had pneumonia at that time as well.

Turns out that this pneumonia was in the exact spot as that pneumonia. That year I had A LOT to clear (oh, just a bit to get over…abuse, grief, restraining order, divorce…) It seems there was a bit left to clear:)

I was prescribed two different antibiotics, got a strong IV to give me energy, and off I set for our flights.

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After my pneumonia was fully gone I felt renewed & so much lighter. And what I will share with you next week is what transpired the following month in August.

Stunning is not even the word to describe it….You see, when we clear old programs, old beliefs & old stories within our energetic system we allow more space for all of the intentions we have asked for to elegantly float on in…feeling like we’ve just been touched by magic. Mark your calendar and be sure to join me next week for that post!

Overcoming Challenges: How YOU Can Elegantly do this!

This summer has been a doozy for many people. People are going through major obstacles & challenges and I wanted to share wisdom on how you can see your way through anything. And how after you’ve moved through it, you will see and experience the miracles you were meant to.

As Spiritual women we have TWO choices:

  1. We can experience obstacles and challenges and feel like a victim.
  2. We can say, “Ah, I see there is something to CLEAR within me.” Then, as we clear, we really listen to Divine Inspiration about what we require to do to help us move through this with ease.  And, along the way, we energetically become a match to that which we desire.”

When we incessantly talk about our challenges & complain about every thing and every one we simply create more blocks to our light as well as the miracles waiting to manifest.

We don’t learn. We don’t grow. We don’t evolve.

No, we stay stuck, all the while ensuring that more drama will occur.

Because remember: like attracts like. So if you are being negative, more negativity will be brought to you.

This is where free will comes in. It’s not the Divine trying to “punish you” or “test you”.  It is simply the Divine allowing you the free will to choose how you desire to live.

Either way, in the end, whether it takes 1 month or 10 years of experiencing the SAME issues over and over again, you will one day get fed up and turn towards LOVE & JOY – and that is the only thing Divine Energy is interested in. Not the time limit.

YOU decide how swiftly and consistently you experience peace and happiness in your life.

I know that is a tough one to swallow, but as I mentioned to my hubby this summer as we were walking,

“Have you ever noticed that whenever you have a problem you’re there?”

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So, if overcoming challenges (the Elegant Way) has been on your mind lately, please hear this…

The Universe/God/Source is responding to YOU.

  • Do you feel emotionally chaotic inside?
  • Have you always struggled with setting boundaries?
  • Is there one issue that continues to come up in your life? What is it?
  • If that issue were not an issue anymore, what would your life be like? How would you feel? What would you be doing? What would you be enjoying?
  • Do you find it difficult believing in yourself? Your worth? Your capabilities?
  • Do you find it difficult to give yourself permission to slow down, relax, pamper yourself, go on a retreat, go on a girly holiday, get a spa treatment?
  • Do you have health problems that keep you from doing work you love? Do you worry that if you get healthy you’ll have to work too hard?
  • Do you struggle with your weight, feeling beautiful or loving yourself?
  • Do you struggle financially?

ALL of these issues have a certain frequency and vibration. So because that frequency is being sent out to the Universe from you, unconsciously, what gets sent back is similar experiences or feelings because that is how the law works.

Now, what’s the reason behind the law being set up this way? It’s to provide you with free will. No judgement, just support towards you evolving.

What? How is giving me all this grief supporting me, you ask?

Each experience will come into your life so that you have the OPPORTUNITY to choose a different way and finally become who you require to become in order to begin experiencing the life you TRULY desire.

I love this poem from a buddhist book I received in France….

“Autobiography in Five Chapters”

1) I walk down the street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost…I am hopeless.

It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.

 

2) I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don’t see it.

I fall in again.

I can’t believe I’m in the same place.

Bit it isn’t my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

 

3) I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it is there.

I still fall in…it’s a habit

My eyes are open.

I know where I am.

It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

 

4) I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

 

5) I walk down another street.

-Portia Nelson

 

This Buddhist book then goes on to say:

The purpose of reflecting on this is to make a real change in the depths of your heart, and to come to learn how to avoid the “hole in the sidewalk,” and how to “walk down another street”. Often this will require a period of retreat and deep contemplation, because only that can truly open our eyes to what we are doing with our lives.

Yes going on a retreat as I did 7 years ago can completely transform your life, however, it is also in the daily practise of what I call, “Coming back HOME & Aligning with Elegant Flow” that you will begin to experience life differently.

Simple Ways of Aligning With Elegant Flow

Every time you see and hear yourself reacting to life in a certain way (and experiencing a certain outcome) become CONSCIOUS of it.

Then, make a CONSCIOUS choice to change your reaction.

Apologise or make it right somehow.

Repeat, “I love you, __________.” (Insert your name here)

Do something to raise your vibration. You can learn 14 of my favourite ways HERE.

Or, do The Elegant Clearing Process™, which can be learned after you’ve gone through The Art of Living Elegantly™.

Spiritual, Elegant Women CHOOSE to live elegantly, and yes, it is a daily process. But the more and more you choose to live this way, the more life becomes elegant.

The Elegant Life is:

  1. When life flows.
  2. Elegantly moving through challenges.
  3. Desires manifest almost effortlessly.
  4. Your heart is almost consistently in a state of Peace & Exquisite Joy & Bliss.
  5. You feel you have beauty and purpose in your life; your Calling is absolutely clear.
  6. You have a deep connection with who and what you really are.

I promise you this… once you become the woman you are required to be by consistently making different choices than you habitually do, whatever your soul has been desiring will come into your life SO easily & elegantly you’ll be absolutely shocked and amazed.

I experience this personally over and over again and so do my clients.

Do we still have challenges in life? Yes, of course, because we are all constantly evolving, it’s never finished.  But the process is smoother and quicker, which is really nice, trust me on this one!

If you feel ready to go deeper with this learning and begin the pilgrimage of coming back HOME to elegance, beauty, love, abundance and joy go HERE to learn The Art of Living Elegantly.

With Love,

Erin

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The Top 5 Life Lessons I Learned in France – The Elegant Life

Life Lessons (From France)

So, now you know why my year in France is a year that I will never forget and will always hold so dear to my heart.

In 1997 I left Canada a broken, insecure, unfulfilled person and in 1998 I returned a peaceful, confident, and spiritual woman.

It is my greatest honour to pass along some of the wisdom I gained. The life lessons I learned that year have served me every day since then.

I’ve had ups and I’ve had downs, but whenever I come back to these lessons, I feel peaceful, aligned, and confident in who I am and why I’m here.

Are you ready to learn them?

Okay!

Here are 5 of the Top Life Lessons I learned in France:

(Psst…for full explanations of the lessons, watch the video above)

  1. How to live a life filled with Peace, Pleasure, Prosperity, JOY and Beauty.
  2. How to connect with one’s own Divine Nature and how to allow that essence to be so fully YOU that you GLOW and touch other people’s lives with that glow. Shortly after returning from France I was walking in a Health Food Store and a woman stopped abruptly in front of me and said loudly, “WHOAH! YOU ARE GLOWING! You are actually GLOWING!” I just smile when I hear this now because I know it’s not me they’re seeing and feeling, it’s the Divine/Source Energy. This was a wish I had while living in France. I wanted to GLOW like the Buddhist Masters did. And, voila! With time and doing my special daily practise (the one you can find in The 6 Phase Visioning Meditation) I was able to fulfil my wish! And it just keeps getting stronger and stronger as I practise.
  3. How to LIVE your spirituality, not just talk or read about it.
  4. How to know and LOVE yourself intimately, so you never compare yourself with others again.
  5. How to know what your soul desires and how to elegantly manifest it.

Again, these are just SOME of the gorgeous life lessons that France gifted me. The beautiful thing is that much of what I learned has deepened even more since then.

For one, my connection and alignment with Source is something that has deepened to such a level that I consistently receive Divine Downloads for myself and the people I mentor.

I giggle every time I receive an email or comment during a session like this,

“Oh my God, are you psychic? It’s like you know me perfectly and we’ve only just met! 

or

“Oh my God, are you psychic?  I asked to hear these exact words as a sign today!”

This post is the very last post of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman: A Pilgrimage That Began in Paris” series, but it’s just the beginning of what the Divine has guided me to share with you.

Please know that if you have found your way here, it’s not an accident.  It shows you are ready to receive all of the Elegant Processes and wisdom that I have been guided to share.

If you weren’t ready to receive it you wouldn’t have been guided here.  So congratulations for being ready!!!

It is my wish and intention, that today is the beginning of your OWN personal pilgrimage. One that takes you on a beautiful journey back HOME, to your Divine Nature – the place where Inner Peace, JOY, Abundance and Beauty resides.

Living from this space allows you to live in Elegant Flow where everything you desire (or something even better) flows elegantly to you, without hard work or huge effort.

So, let’s get this journey started, shall we?

Each week I will be sharing wisdom with you on how to be a Spiritual Woman who lives The Elegant Life, so make sure you put a note in your calendar to come back here every Wednesday.

Also, I LOVE connecting with you by reading and responding to your comments and questions, so please do write to me in the comments, okay?

Since I will only be posting once a week now, I invite you to follow me on YouTube, Facebook, and Instagram for even more inspiration and wisdom.

See you next week!

Love,

Erin

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #27 (The FINALE)

Well, this beautiful story could continue… in fact it could continue on for years since the connection between Guy, Emil and my current husband, Ilker, is very interconnected. This has been a full circle love story that I will hold close to my heart forever. It’s the story of how I became the Spiritual Woman I am today and how I truly live “The Elegant Life”.

Here is the short version of how things ended with all of the key players in this beautiful story…

I did see Emil one last time – in Prague. That story can be for another time because it wasn’t the kind of meeting I expected, in fact I felt heart broken at one point and then strong and resilient near the end.

The interesting part is that after I returned to Canada, an amazing thing happened to reconnect us and I spent months trying to find a way to get him over to Canada. However, in the midst of this, I met my husband. When I finally told Emil about my “boyfriend” we eventually stopped communicating. The last time I heard from Emil was on my wedding day.

I hadn’t heard from Emil for years but on the morning of my wedding day, which was in Turkey, just next door to Bulgaria where he lived, I opened my email to find, you guessed it, an email from Emil saying he missed me. Yeah, I know….

Talk about a year!

1997, a year that began with drama and things I never thought would happen to me in my life…to experiencing things that were amazing, AMAZING!

In one year I went from stressed, insecure and scattered to spiritually aligned, peaceful and confident in who I was as a woman.


During the remaining months in France my relationship with Guy as well as my spiritual evolution flourished.

I left France with a daily practise that I did every morning without fail…and still do to this day.

When my sister came to visit me in France, just before I left, she was in awe at the reaction I was receiving from people on the street.

“Did you SEE that?” she’d say. “Look how people are reacting to you!”

I was oblivious to it – I just thought their stares and double takes were perhaps because they thought I was someone famous.

But no, there was something different about me.

I felt inner peace.

I felt connected to my “Divine Nature”

I felt beautiful.

I intimately knew and LOVED who Erin was. I loved what her style was and I knew what she required and what she desired…. I just loved her.

WATCH the video above, at minute 5:44-6:30, for a little giggle:)


Guy is, to this day, the greatest gift of my life. He GAVE me the life I have now, as it’s because of everything he showed me, did for me and taught me that I am the woman I am and that I have the life I have now.

This is why he and I were meant to come together that year.  I served the evolution of his soul and he served the evolution of mine. No, it wasn’t meant to be  a long term relationship, but it was truly a year we will both always remember and be thankful for.

I’ve not seen him since 1998, but we spoke regularly for years.

A period went by when our communication totally stopped.

He got married, I got married. We both had children, etc. but a couple of years ago Sandra, he and I almost reunited in Paris. (Sandra and I did and that story is one I MUST tell you since it miraculously occurred after I used my Elegant Clearing Process™).

Sadly, Guy is divorced now, but he is still teaching yoga and is highly respected in what he does.


If you go back to post #1 of this series, “The Making of a Spiritual Woman: A Pilgrimage That Began in Paris”, you will see that it began with Guy and I sitting on a park bench and me staring up into the sky saying with such sadness and hopelessness, “I just want to be happy, Guy. I just want to be happy.”

Well, here’s where I will end this series…

Picture it being July 26, 2003 and I’m on a boat, with 150 plus guests sailing down the Bosphorus in Istanbul, Turkey.

I’m wearing a simple, elegant wedding dress that is so ME, and I’m with my father. We are dancing to the Father/Daughter song and all I keep repeating is, “Dad, I’m so happy right now. I’m SO happy.”

I felt peace in my heart and full JOY and contentment with my life, who I was marrying and who I was as a woman.

 The Finale of The Making of an Elegant Woman

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I want to say a massive thank you to my husband; my dark-haired, spiritual, generous, guitar playing, great cook, music loving, great lover of a husband for loving me unconditionally and gifting me two incredibly beautiful souls…our children.

HERE is a post I wrote culminating all the BIG LIFE lessons I learned in France and what that means for YOU.  

I always felt I needed to share this story, but I never wanted to share it just for ME. There was a purpose and the Divine told me I needed to share it.

The beautiful responses I’ve been receiving privately just solidifies WHY I needed to share it.

The post HERE shares how we’ll be moving forward at The Elegant Life.

I really cannot wait! It’s been 20 years since I began my pilgrimage back HOME to the truth of who I am, both as a soul and as a woman, and I finally feel ready to BE the woman I was meant to BE; to share these exquisite Elegant Processes & Principles it took me years to learn and embody.

Now it’s your turn to begin your OWN beautiful pilgrimage, but the good news is that your pilgrimage will be supported by exquisite Elegant Processes!

It’s going to be a beautiful journey:)

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #26 (My BIG Spiritual Lesson)

Dear Diary,

My trip to Italy was incredible! Spaghetti and Tiramisu really DOES taste different there!

I will never forget the evening my friend and I dined under the stars eating spaghetti bolognese and tiramisu while being served by a funny, passionate Italian!

I will cherish this trip for a very long time. What a stunning country full of vivacious life, history, beauty and dark-haired men! LOL!

I just HAD to call Guy and talk though.

I felt ill inside the few days before coming home. I knew he would be open to talking as I had spoken to Sandra and she told me that he was better.

He had finally realised why I had been telling him over and over for two weeks before I left that it was over and I didn’t want to hurt him anymore.

It felt so good to talk with him in a civil way again; with calmness and peace – how we used to.

He told me that I’ve always asked him to understand me, so now he is asking me to try and understand him. He was just in shock at seeing me kiss Emil, so he lost it.

I totally understand that.

He also said, “I don’t think you realise I much I love you.”

We both agreed that we needed each other in our lives and that after we drive Sandra to her new home in Bretagne we would carry on as friends.

Peace at last.

Now…what in the world do I do about this romance with Emil???

Sandra gave me a note that Emil had written for me while I was in Italy. Oh my God. He really, really felt the way he said he did!

He wrote so beautifully and with such heart. I have to admit, I’m in shock!

God, why am I always so in shock when great men like me?

Emil wrote that he loved me, that he wished he could spend every minute with me and that one day at work, the theme song from The Titanic, “My Heart Will Go On” played on the radio and he cried like a baby.

What???? My tender, emotional, gorgeous man felt the same emotions I had been feeling as I stared for hours at the photos of us in the flower fields by my house?

I’ve never felt THIS way before. It’s different than with Guy. This love feels more like the kind you see in a romance novel or movie. With Guy it was…hmmm… also a romance novel or movie, just a different script.

But with Emil, because he was my type, this added factor of attractiveness completely made me swoon and fall deeply, quickly.

I’m going to go to sleep and dream about him.


Dear Diary,

Today Guy and I drove Sandra to her new family in Bretagne. I’m so happy for her as the family seems so down to earth and the home they live in is gorgeous! It’s near to the Sea, so I can picture Sandra spending a lot of time at the beach.

I will miss her so much though.

On the drive home, Guy and I had a lot of time to talk. I opened up and really tried to explain how I believe we weren’t destined to be together forever, but that we were destined to meet each other and share this experience.

He said all the same beautiful things as usual but then the conversation shifted and we began talking about life like friends. Ahhh….this felt right.

At one point he turned to me and said something that hit me right in the heart and was perfect for me to hear in that moment.

He said, “Erin, I have to tell you that the man who you decide to spend the rest of your life with will be the luckiest man on this earth, because you are truly a beautiful person.”

For the first time in my life, I actually felt and believed that yes, I AM a beautiful person and I deserve to be truly loved and appreciated for who I am.

This is a very spiritual time for me right now and I am learning so many beautiful, spiritual lessons.

When I read from Deepak’s book, “The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success” I just sob from the absolute truth about how this whole thing called life works…


Dear Diary,
Today I felt like leaving the family – I cannot take the mother anymore!! She is SO off and on with her emotions and the LAST thing I need in my life right now is stress!

I spoke to Guy about all this and he said that he is here for me with whatever decision I make but to make sure that I leave without regrets.

He also added…

“Now is the time to bring your meditation into your life.”

Oooooh, that hit home. This was a powerful spiritual lesson for me.

Being with Guy this year has gifted me more than just love and compassion. He has helped bring me back HOME. Home to my Divinity. Home to where my peace & happiness reside and where I don’t feel the need to always run or react in anger.

I know how to align myself and actually EMBODY the essence of an enlightened being now. Guy was right, now was the time to really bring my meditation into my life.

Join me HERE for the finale of “The Making of a Spiritual Woman” series. Find out what happened with Sandra, Emil and Guy, and how they actually led me to my husband. I came full circle, from sitting on a bench in France telling Guy, “I just want to be happy”, to being on a boat, on the Bosphorus in Istanbul saying….

With so much love,

Erin Kurt

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The Making of a Spiritual Woman: Video #25 (Train Station Goodbye)

Dear Diary,
Yikes! My brain is cluttered. I just want to take a hot bath with essential oils and have some soft music playing and candles burning…

I’m not able to do this right now, so instead I am choosing to listen to music, sing out loud and DANCE! This always makes me feel better:)

Things are just getting so complicated.

Guy is a wreck and actually making me scared.

Everywhere I am, he turns up! I’m driving, he’s beside me on the road. I’m at the train station, he’s there and wants to talk.

I’m at the movies and I feel his presence and boom! It turns out he was there!

And today, Emil, Sandra, her boyfriend and I were doing errands for my Italy trip and whose there? GUY!

I was paying at the cashier and looked up and there he was.

He said, “I promise I didn’t plan this.”

I’m feeling scared! Who IS this person?

Sandra and I were back at her place and Guy called. He was sobbing and saying he needed to talk. God! It’s April and at this exact time last year I felt exactly the same…

Stressed, overwhelmed, frustrated, pressured. I started to cry, as I just couldn’t hold in all my emotions any more.

I agreed to let Guy come over for 5-10 minutes and what did he show up with? Flowers.

He told me to look at him and tell him it was over and would never be again.

“Regards moi, Erin. Regards moi et dis moi que c’est fini entre nous”. (“Look at me, Erin. Look at me and tell me it’s finished between us”)

I looked straight into his eyes and told him, “Guy, c’est fini.”

Somehow this helped him, so we just sat and talked in a very adult way about how things would be between us from now on.

After he left I felt a HUGE sense of relief. This was not the life I wanted. I needed to be FREE and continue learning who Erin was.

What do I like?

What do I want out of life?

I want to deepen my connection to God/Spirit/ what ever it is.

I WANT that. THAT is what my soul is desiring.

After a while, Emil and Sandra’s boyfriend came over. It felt SO good to have him there – a calm, happy presence.

We had an amazing time laughing and talking and connecting. Emil held my hand and guided me to sit on his lap so he could cuddle me.

We had such easy conversation and all I could think was, “Erin, is this your life?”

“You are with a gorgeous, dark-haired guy who treats you so kindly, so tenderly and is SO into learning about you, your life and your interests. I cannot believe this is your life!”


Dear Diary,
Today I went to Emil’s apartment and we ate lunch, sang songs together, watched a music concert on TV then decided to go for a walk near my house.

He was so excited to experience my world! He looked at all my photos from Canada with such delight and then asked for me to show him my favourite walk by my house.

Oh my goodness…

We walked through fields of flowers and chateaux taking photos, hugging and laughing…a lot!

I felt so loved and cared for. See? Guy isn’t the only man in the world who will treat me right!

Why did I think that? I would have settled if I had stayed with him!

But… I leave for Italy in 2 days – what can ever come of this?


Dear Diary,
Today I head to Italy!!! Guy was kind enough to take me to the dermatologists office to get the prescription for my acne. The doctor says I should notice a difference in a week – oh, I hope so!

Now, the plan was to meet at Emil’s house so I could say good-bye and he could take me to the train station.

I didn’t know what to do because Guy offered to drive me to the train station but I kept saying,

“No, it’s okay. I need to say good-bye to everyone from Prague anyway.”

So, he offered to drop me off there.

I hated this, but didn’t quite know what to say!

Emil and Sandra’s boyfriend were waiting outside for me – uh oh…

As soon as Emil saw me I could tell he was emotional.

Guy drove off and Emil came up to me, put his arm around my shoulders and walked me into the apartment.

Shit, I hope Guy was far enough away that he didn’t see that!

Emil and I spent our last couple of hours talking and kissing in his bedroom. We kept telling each other over and over how much we would miss each other and how sad we were that we met so late.

When I would return from Italy he would be back in Prague. This was a totally intense romance between us.

He asked to keep a picture of me and I could feel how intensely he felt for me when I gave it to him.

Oh God, what is this all about?

We walked to the Boulangerie to buy something for me to eat on the train and couldn’t stop touching eachother. He had to have his hand on my back and I had to be touching his hand – it was like we didn’t want to be disconnected from each other.

He even turned to me and said, “Erin, can you believe that today is one week exactly that we got together?”

What guy remembers those things…and in the middle of a grocery store??

I LOVE this!

We continued on to the train station and I felt a pit in my stomach.

One, because I was going to have to leave Emil and this amazing, new relationship and two, because I felt Guy’s energy somewhere.

I just felt that he was there, but I wasn’t going to ruin this beautiful moment.

Emil and I went to sit on a bench on the train station platform. We faced one another and stared into each other’s eyes while holding hands.

I felt like I was in a movie, a romantic, magical movie, when all of a sudden….

I turned to see Guy charging up the stairs of the train station.

I winced and said, “Guy, pourquoi tu fais ca?” (“Guy, why are you doing this?”)

He spit out, “I looked back in the mirror of my car! I knew this started when we were still together!”

I said, “Non, ce n’est pas vrai!” (“No, it’s not true”)

He stomped away, then turned back around and said to me,

“When you come back, you give me back my knapsack and then that’s it – I don’t want to see you!”

Then he turned to Emil and said, “This doesn’t bother you, hey? You probably like it!”

Emil and I were in shock. He kept saying the F word over and over and over again and told me how sorry he was that I was going to have to come back and deal with all of this by myself.

Wow, I felt so protected by his caring words.

We only had two minutes before my train arrived, so I put Guy out of my mind and just focused on Emil.

Soon the train arrived. We stood up and walked slowly to the carriage.

The door opened, we shared a tender kiss and then as I boarded the train, I felt his hand on my back. Oh, his touch…

The train started pulling away and just like in old movies, he walked alongside the train with his gaze fixated on mine.

As I stared out the window at him, the last thing I remember seeing is him kissing his fingers and raising them up into a peace sign.

I felt like crying because today, I’m leaving a true romance, I’ve hurt and angered someone who has respected and loved me unconditionally, and to top it all off, today, my divorce is legally over. Talk about endings….

So, here I sit, on a train in France, heading to Italy, and even with everything that just transpired a moment ago, I still am having the time of my life.

Join me HERE for the very last post in this series, where I share one of the biggest lessons I learned while in France.

See you tomorrow!

With love,

Erin Kurt