Chère Diary…
Oh my goodness, day by day I am feeling more and more for Guy.
Two nights ago Sandra, Guy and I went to a movie, “The Chacal”. Then Guy drove me back to my car at his house and we just couldn’t say good-bye!
We ended up going up to his place and spent a beautiful 2 1/2 hours together.
The way he looks at me is just the way I always dreamed a man would look at me. He truly cares about ME, more than anyone ever has. It’s a spiritual love and such a deep, deep caring.
The next night Sandra and I went over to Guy’s house for dinner.
What an AMAZING cook he is! As he cooked we snuck kisses and touches. At one point he whispered in my ear,
“Yier soir était trop court” (Last night was too short)
I giggled and then felt my eyes roll back in my head remembering it all!
Tomorrow he’s taking me to a man made lake. Ahhhhh…I don’t even have words for how I feel right now.
Chère Diary…
Today was magical.
I arrived at Guy’s house and as soon as we saw each other we hugged and kissed and then ended up making love for 2 ½ hours!
We then decided to go to walk in the forest.
Guy and I both adore spending time in nature, and today he suggested he take me to his favourite forest. One that is his favourite spot to meditate.
Ahhhh….inner peace and bliss doesn’t even begin to describe what I was experiencing as I walked through the forest and meditated with him.
He has a very strong Buddhist practise that he does and I love balancing my chakras and just being still.
The silence, the birds, the quiet, the peace….this is ME.
There is absolutely nothing more special in this world than being your true self and really living it.
Erin, I am so proud of you. You followed your dream!
You gave yourself permission to come here to France, even amongst all your doubts and insecurities. I love you!
After we finished meditating we felt hungry, so we went to buy some fresh lettuce for dinner and a little treat at la Patisserie.
Guy and I both felt so enamoured by how perfect the day was so we couldn’t keep our hands off each other!
As soon as we arrived at his house we had another 2 hour session!
Have I mentioned that I actually experience the big “O” with Guy? Yes!!!! Never in my life did I think I would get to understand what that was. I never experienced it with anyone, but with Guy, I have!!!
What are you doing to me, Guy?
Who ARE you???
Now we were totally hungry, so Guy cooked the spaghetti I had bought and I made my famous sauce.
Frank Sinatra was playing in the background, and as we moved around the kitchen we hugged, kissed and cooked…just like the dreams I used to have.
He wasn’t acting and I wasn’t acting. This was real. This was natural.
And let me tell you, when Guy set the table and lit candles for us to eat by candlelight, I almost broke down crying. Everything I had ever wanted and asked David for was being done for me, without me even asking. Thank you, God!
We had great conversation and then before dessert, Guy came over to me, took my napkin off my lap and pulled me up to dance.
Okay……..can he fulfill any MORE of my dreams???
After dinner we talked, listened to more music and once again made love.
The way he looks into my eyes and touches me is so different than anyone else. It’s a spiritual, healing experience and the emotions are going wild yet at a calm pace – this is just so amazing.
So, why do I still feel so unsure of Guy?
Join me tomorrow HERE when I do a complete 180 and make a decision that might make you go, “Erin, NO!” (Trust me, if I were the person reading the post I may do the same, but…)
Have YOU ever felt totally confused about something? A job? A business? A partner? A relationship? A move? I’d love to hear about it and how you moved through it!
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I finally caught up with your amazing story! You are an inspiration for women of every age and ethnicity! You set a wonderful example for all of us. It’s funny that I thought I knew you pretty well, but as I read about your life through this blog, I find out more and more about you. You had the courage to go after your dreams and to make such an incredible life for yourself.
Wow, what a lovely thing to say, Ellen. It means so much to me to hear that my story is being felt across the oceans. Yes, I’ve never ever shared in detail this story, but it feels amazing to do so. That year in France absolutely changed the course of my life. One decision, one choice at a time. It was so magical to witness what would happen each time I made a choice that honoured ME. This is my message to women everywhere – any age and any ethnicity as you so beautifully described.THANK YOU for your comment. x
I finally caught up with your amazing story! You are an inspiration for women of every age and ethnicity! You set a wonderful example for all of us. It’s funny that I thought I knew you pretty well, but as I read about your life through this blog, I find out more and more about you. You had the courage to go after your dreams and to make such an incredible life for yourself.
Wow, what a lovely thing to say, Ellen. It means so much to me to hear that my story is being felt across the oceans. Yes, I’ve never ever shared in detail this story, but it feels amazing to do so. That year in France absolutely changed the course of my life. One decision, one choice at a time. It was so magical to witness what would happen each time I made a choice that honoured ME. This is my message to women everywhere – any age and any ethnicity as you so beautifully described.THANK YOU for your comment. x