“I would do that if_____________.” Have you ever said this?
I would do that if I felt better.
I would do that if I didn’t have to look after my kids.
I would do that if I lost 20 pounds.
I would do that if my boss wasn’t so…
I would do that if I knew how to……
How many times do we as women turn away from our Calling? Loads. How do I know this? I’ve been coaching women from around the world for 10 years AND I used to be a woman who consistently rejected her soul’s true Calling.
For those of you who have followed me you may be thinking, “What? Look what you’ve done over your lifetime? You’ve taught around the world, lived in France, written a book, created multiple online businesses? How can you say this?”
Well…
Underneath everything I have done in my life, there was always, always a yearning to really connect with the Universe and have a huge impact on people’s lives. I am not sure I even knew WHY, I just had this strong, innate desire to! (aka “my Calling”, but I didn’t know this back then)
Throughout my life I accomplished things that consistently allowed me to do my Calling to a certain level yet deep down there always felt like more. I got side tracked the odd time due to my incessant need to prove myself; that I was good enough & worthy enough.
I used to feel such comparison with my sister who was the natural achiever. She didn’t have to try, she was just naturally gifted at school, piano, poetry, speaking. You name it, she won an award for it. And as a result I felt less than. Not special enough. Not appreciated enough.
So as many women do, we go on with our lives living with a certain amount of negative energy and limiting beliefs within us.
And this holds us back from acknowledging & knowing our Calling as well as feeling worthy enough to accept our Calling…
And therefore, we move through our lives feeling:
- held back
- anxious
- unfulfilled
- nervous
- resentful
- exhausted & overwhelmed
- scared
- frustrated
You name it! And the reason why is because we KNOW we are meant for more in our life.
Our soul feels it. Craves it. Desires it. Yearns for it!
But…we come up with fantastic, very logical reasons why we can’t, and these very logical reasons keep those yearning feelings pushed down for a while, but…
They’ll always come back again, because a Calling is a Calling, and you were created to fulfil it, so the feeling will never leave you.
You may never DO your calling, but it will always BE there, yearning to be fulfilled. (That’s the definition of a tragedy in my opinion)
How to Move Forward When Negative Energy is Blocking You
The FIRST question to answer is…How did I go from feeling completely happy, fulfilled, blissful, whole and connected to the Divine after my life changing year in France
to feeling hopeless, totally disconnected, profoundly depressed and completely lost 14 years later?
How is that even possible? Well…I had reached a level of evolution and was required to evolve some more. In fact little did I know, this evolution was to be THE most profound spiritual experience I could have ever believed or wished for.
What happened?
Well, I’ll save that story for another time, but the short version was that a friend of mine asked if I would allow her to practise a clearing technique on me. She was training in it and needed some practise hours.
In the middle of our session she found an area that had some negative energy blocked so told me to “tone”. It’s like saying , “Ahhhhhhhhh”. The problem was that I couldn’t. I literally could not get a sound out! Watch the video above at minute 3:00 to see me demonstrate this bizarre experience.
After multiple tries my friend said, “Erin, when you finally release this you’ll be free”. I’ll never forget those words because at that moment that is really what I wanted – to be free from all the horrible unhappiness and depression I was feeling inside.
The BIG Clearing that Occurred!
After the session I went home to England and felt better, more open, but still felt that yearning to clear what I hadn’t been able to. So, when my friend emailed me a couple of months later saying that there was going to be a 6 Day Retreat where we would be doing A LOT of clearing my hubby and I said, “YES!”
This too is a long story that will be told (definitely at The Elegant Life Retreat I’ll be hosting in late May) but for now I’ll give you the short version.
One day during the beginning of the retreat I felt extremely down. I felt like I was so far from ever being able to feel the way I desired, that I didn’t “get” how this Universe worked and that the connection with my Divinity was almost non-existent.
The negative energy inside of me was huge. So much so that I went up to my room and wrote in my Journal all the frustrations I was feeling. I really didn’t want to go back down for the afternoon session but my husband came to get me and persuaded me to finish what we started.
We did another clearing and while I lay there afterwards I had THE most profound experience of my life. My physical body dissolved and I was at one with Consciousness – the energy of me was in union with the All energy- Divine Consciousness. I struggle to share what I felt because it is indescribable, but I sometimes say, “I had a near death experience without dying.”
I remember feeling like, “I never want to leave here” and I could hear my physical self saying, “Wooooowww”.
Right after this I went up to my room and had downloaded to me Universal truths of how this Universe works, why we’re here, what we’re supposed to be doing and HOW to do it, how to manifest the life we want, how to experience this feeling of bliss consistently and more.
I had a KNOWING that:
a) We are part of this all encompassing Divine energy
b) We all have a Calling and when we clear the clutter and negative energy that exists in us we are able to live out that Calling and live Heaven on Earth.
When You Clear Negative Energy Your World Opens Up
Since that time 6 or 7 years ago, I have opened up even more and fully accepted who I was created to BE in this lifetime- A Spiritual Teacher of Divine Truths.
Last year I was told by Consciousness that The Elegant Life needed to expand even more. It needed to help women awaken and come back HOME to their Divinity, to assist them in reconnecting with Consciousness but also to fully accept and LOVE who they’ve been made to be and what their Calling is in this lifetime.
I’ll be sharing more about this in the coming weeks. (Squeal!)
A Gorgeous Sign That I am Truly Fulfilling my Calling
This summer, I travelled to the location I had been guided to host The Elegant Life Retreat in order to test it out and see if it really was the right location.
All I can say is….WOW! I will share this most exquisite story with you another time but if you watch the video above from minute 10:00-14:00 you’ll see a video I took in this location that gave me shivers, warmth, & utter surety that yes, Erin, this is it. This is it. And you are on the right path of fulfilling your Calling.
Now it’s YOUR turn! If you’ve been feeling a deep desire to BE more, DO more, or EXPERIENCE more in your life this is the time to Find Your Calling and Clear any Negative Energy that is blocking you from doing that.
I’m SO excited for you!
Life is about to get really, really Beautiful.
With so much love,
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I’m listening to your channel at the office while I work on spreadsheets and slides. At the end of this particular video I decided to open a cruise brochure I had grabbed to read on the train; when I opened it, on the very first page was a photo of a vase filled with white roses. Of course, I noted the interesting ‘coincidence’ since I now always think of you when I see white roses.
Happy Monday!
Aw, Mary, thank you for sharing this with me! I love knowing where people watch and listen to my videos:) And how lovely that you associate me with my favourite white roses. Ahhh, yes, a very elegant coincidence:) I wonder if it is the cruise down the Danube River in Budapest? (wink, wink)